BEING AS WHAT ARISES


The momentum of thought is powered by repetition. Circular, repetitious and obsessive thinking is a symptom of the arising of past, and of not being present. The nature of conditioning is determined by the strengthening of belief through repetition, and this is the means by which it is empowered. With a pattern of repetition, what arises is trusted and believed. The identification with thought and its' circuitous nature offers no solution to what arises other than suffering. The habit and drive to react is an energy seeking stillness.

Can one rest with what arises, and that which has been interpreted as difficult or challenging? It is the apparent movement away from this that brings suffering, and re-identification. Sensation activates thought, thought activates sensation. It is the resistance to what arises that brings suffering, not what arises.

When one becomes overwhelmed by thought, the body-mind response is to shut down or dissociate. This is an involuntary physiological reaction as a means of protection and survival. To become aware of the sensation that arises prior to reaction or the movement away from True- Nature, is to be present with what is prior. To notice sensation, is to not interpret, label, judge, resist, criticize, analyze.

To return to the present, is to slow or stop the pattern of thought, and to bring momentum to being present as Awareness. When one is present, one can inquire as to whether that which arises, the thoughts, the story, is true. Inquiry is the means by which the momentum of identification diminishes or stops. The activated state of thought and self is diminished in and as spaciousness.

To sit with the apparent challenge or uncomfortable quality in the space prior to the habit of thought, reaction, and the tendency towards avoidance, is the way of intimacy. Stillness will be met with new resistance, as the pattern seeks a familiar momentum and control. This requires courage. The desire to meet, resolve, and process patterns must be greater than the desire and tendency to avoid, manage, and maintain them. The belief that supports resistance, is that sensation is uncomfortable or challenging, when it is discomfort and challenge that arises with avoidance. This is suffering.

The i arises here, as does all experience. It is the identification with that, which brings suffering, as separation, identification, and objectification. Sensation is interpreted as a me, an i. The notion of a separate self arises with the language, thought, and belief 'I am sad', I am angry', not 'sadness is present', 'anger is present.' This is interpretation, and the arising of the i - story. Awareness is identified as mind, thought as self, and self as object. Nothing can be added to I AM without identification.

One can say that we are, not what we are. There is no i, and there is only i. All experience arises in and as Presence, and nobody is doing it. There is nothing outside of Presence, nothing other than Presence.